so you like to do things sloppily huh ?

do you mind to do things neatly instead of sloppily? i don't know whether are you going to read my blog but who cares.

i dislike to step into other's relationship and make fun of it or bother about it. i mean, it's not my business and why on earth should i go and interrupt? however, this time was different, i couldn't just sit there and pretend like, ' oh, who cares, non of my business '

there is nothing wrong for a girl to try and approach a guy, isn't it ? yes, i admitted that i'm always the one who take the initial step in my relationships, so ? are you going to perceive me as a bitch ? each of us have our own stories, i mean, the past.

here's my story starts.

in 2010, i met a guy in my uni, well, not going to type his name out, i was amazed by his appearance and his height at the first sight apparently. i knew him cause' of my roommate and so we started to chat every night and i changed my bed time just because of wanted to chat with him a bit longer, sounds naive eh? so, it's obviously that, my feelings towards him was increasing as the days passed by.

first time, i dated him out for a movie. and i could feel that he was pretty paniced and shocked. he ended up calling his friends to go along and so did i. we didn't talk much on that day, perhaps both of us were too shy. after i've considered for a period of time, i decided to confess my feelings to him.

well, i didn't get any positive response, instead, a blur answer. i was pretty cool and calm at that particular jiffy. i didn't push him for an exact answer but, from the bottom of my heart, it was sank, very much. i didn't just give up in waiting for his answer but, kept waiting, waiting and waiting.

guess what ? i ended up to put a fullstop in it. reason? simple. girls deserve a man who treats them like tomorrow will be the doomsday of the world but not treats them like a plastic bag. how would you feel if you're the one who keep waiting for the answer and the other half one was actually doing it sloppily or perhaps, he's enjoying the moment that the girl treated him like a prince ? who knows.

i, completely understand that it takes time to know a person better. well, my case wasn't that bad. maybe i did the right decision and that's why i met him, my boy who treats me like a princess.

nevertheless, not every girls will have the same story. hers is different. by just standing outside of her situation, i was mad at the guy, very mad.

if you don't have the feelings towards her, why on earth you kept giving her hopes ?
if you are really mind about the tattoo, do you mind that i give you a shit ?
if you are really care about the past of hers, could you afford to create an eraser and help her to erase it ? could you ?
if you are not sure about the future, could you please just stop thinking about the future and think about the present ?

a guy, like you, doesn't deserve a girl like her, seriously. it isn't fun to make a girl kept waiting for you and you kept putting the salt on her wound. someday, you'll realize, you've let go a gold, a valuable gold in the entire of your life. so, do you still want to do it sloppily in every relationships of yours ? nahhhhh. up to you.