song from secret garden.

hmmm, please do me a favor, hit the play button before you start to read, thankyou. 

' mommy, why they're so rich that they don't even have to worry about the meals for tomorrow, or worry about the place to stay? why it has to be so unfair to us? why they're able to shop till drops whereas all i could do is window shopping? why....' 

everyone has his/her own destiny, we just couldn't control or even ask for it, could we? to be frank, i come from a very humble family and i don't think that you would want to know about the details. i just wanted to say that, the evil thought inside my mind is growing, and i just don't understand why, or perhaps, i knew about the reason and i just wanted to run away from it. 

the moment i sat down and started to work my brain, there was a little evil inside my mind and kept asking me to get mad with it or screw it. i tried to get over it, i really tried. i tried to talk to someone who i can talk with, yet, sometimes, i chose the wrong person to talk to and it worsen my feeling, so badly. 

maybe you couldn't get what i meant, what i really wanted is a big warm hug as an advice and tell me that it's going to be okay soon after all. and please, do not get me wrong, i'm not  here to ask you all for mercy, not at all. just that, everyone gets sentimental once in a blue moon, ehhh? 

my evil thought popping out abruptly, again. i just couldn't get those words out of my mind.

' you can just sit at the kitchen and accessing to the internet la '

' i don't like the way he did '

' you better watch out, don't let me have the chance to have a car here '

helloooooooooooooo, i'm a human being and i need some love too. don't you order me like a maid, don't you treat me like a plastic bag, don't you say things to me without thinking of the consequences. yea, people are selfish, so am i, sometimes, i have to be REALLY selfish just to protect my heart. shall stop, or else, *couldn't think of the consequences also*   byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee