don'tknowwhati'mtalkingabout.

it has been a really long time that i was out from this. just couldn't type a single word. 

sometimes, i feel like, i'm totally out from this world, totally out from the world, the world that i have been living for 20years. sometimes, i just couldn't understand, why there is someone who could afford to make you feel that you're the one to the world and at the same time, to make you feel that you're nobody to the world. *grumpy* 

there was a day, he asked me, ' why you wear a troubled face, like always? you should smile more, s-m-i-l-e, instead of showing me your sour face.' *smiling at him at that moment* ' there you go, how pretty you are, i mean it' 

i wasn't really mean to hide my smile, just that, i find it's tiring to smile at the world. i knew that we're not supposed to compare to others, my life is way better than others compared to the people out there, yes, i knew that. that's why i don't really complain about the standard of the life of mine. 

friends. i met them accidentally without any plans. it's not like we will get the return for whatever we have done. it's not like, a 'hello' will make everyone warm. somehow, a 'goodbye' is the only thing that they wanted to utter. they just left, like that, friends.