so i had a tough day yesterday and tried so hard not to show any expressions on my entire frame. what i needed at that particular jiffy was a hug/text from the loved ones. but heard nothing from the man and it was the time sentimental started to grow and lots of doubts crawling in, just like the ants squeezing out through the tiny hole. lost my concentration and all and i just stared at my laptop, working papers and went blank.
i was actually afraid of something tragic would transpire between both of us and i just couldnt stop myself from imagining too much. thats habit thou, not good. so the moment i decided to keep my mobile phone aside and focus on what i was supposed to finish, it didnt take long for the text coming in from the man and saying,
"the only reason that i have been ignoring your texts was because i was beating the traffic jam and coming over all the way and look where i am now baby. i knew you are unhappy today and a tight hug is all you needed now. see you in a bit"
trust me, nobody knows me better than him, nobody. not even me, myself. i actually felt guilty for letting the faith that i have in him wobbled for a sec. silly thought, ever. at that particular jiffy, something slapped me so hard. i realized, i aint looking for branded handbags, heels, clothes, unnecessary wanted things and etc. no, i want none of the single things except the man, whom could not be valued at all, cause' he is priceless afterall.
i fell hard last time and i wont allow myself to fall, again. can hear criticism and rumors going on, still. but haters, what goes around comes around. watch me, and try me. aint going to give a shit on you all judgements/criticism, at all (:
happy,
cause' im happy,
happy that im given the chance to know you,
the only chance that i might let it slip,
this time,
i wont let go,
till the time you ask me to.
5 months, counting still ♥
