hoping this is the end.

its raining day, again. and it reminds me of the night, that crazy night i ever had. i swear im not gonna take any alcohols anymore, not even a sip. blahhhhh

woke up the next day and received a text from him. it didnt take me long to press the delete button cause' the moment i saw his picture, i could barely breathe, at all. the harder i try, the faster the pain is eating me up. i tried, and im still trying.

why bother sending me text? why bother giving me a call when you dont even care? why. i guess i need another years to get over you, i guess. it took me so hard to hold my tears in front of your mother. and im glad that you weren't there.

when it is meant to be the end, just let it be, then.

Happy Winter Solstice Everyone

Hello everyone. as the title mentioned, yep,

HAPPY WINTER SOLSTICE EVERYONE ;)

i am so glad that i get to celebrate this special day of the year with my family. i mean, not everyone of you would have the chance due to studies, careers and etc. hence, here's my warm wishes to all of you ♥

jie, sorry for not being there with you but im sure that you knew we all missing you as much as you miss us. love you to the moon and back muahhhh ♥

I love you

so, yep, i love you.

i was sleeping so tight, so tight that i was actually having a dream. then, there was a knock on the door and it was slowly opened. the wood cracked the moment the person stepped into my room.

then i could feel that the person was crawling on my bed and hugged me from behind. the warmth, i love it.

then, the person whispered,

'jie, sleep tight and goodnight you are gonna be okay ♥'

and i knew that you are gonna scream at me for posting this picture of you hehhehehehheheee :p

Cause' i am.

i've been telling myself that he would be just another stranger whom i used to be with so closely. and i just decided to move on. everyone, including him thinks that its easy to letting go or even moving on. even me, myself think that, its not gonna be difficult. crap, who says its easy again?

i've been wanting to get an offer from any big firms so that i would be qualified as a professional. and i got it and i actually think that i would leap in happiness. but crap, i'm not happy, at all. why.

i've been asking myself to give the day a smile whenever my foot landed on the wood the moment i dragged myself up from the bed. and i actually doing it and managed to convince myself that its actually working. crap, but i forgot to ask myself to give the night a warm embrace before off to bed.

after all, i'm just a liar to myself,
cause' i am

Undelivered.

i wanted to share with you so much when i first got this on my hand. but i knew that, its time to wake up.

its been almost 6 months, 6 months. i thought im getting over it, but i guess i'm wrong. your stupid face still flashing up like a slide show keep playing itself in my mind, and i dont like it, at all. you used to be the one whom i would seek for whenever i have got a good news or a bad ones. now, no more.

you know its very tiring to have the same nightmare for almost every nights. i, literally waking up with anxiety. i've been telling myself to hang in there, those days, those memories would fade away, slowly.

the time i stopped writing about you, its the time that i've stopped missing you.

Good night.

Rolie & Polie.

yes, as the title mentioned, this would be a post all about my pets - rolie & polie :) 

i couldn't sit tight before we decided to take them home. to be frank, i used to be very afraid of dogs, even the puppies :( haha. just laugh your ass out. and i even attempted to stop my mom from adopting them. i told her that how troublesome it would be in taking care of them, how often we have to shower them and etc. i just didn't want my mom to adopt them at the first place.

and it's so obvious that it didn't turn out as bad as i thought thou. hehe. 

this was the first day that we took them home. i guess they were more afraid than i did. my sister tried to get them out of the cage but they just didn't want to move. haha. some of you might have already knew that they are the breed of spitz + dalmatian.   

'hello, i'm polie, nice to meet you. please love me more' 

'hello, i'm rolie :p hehe. i knew you would love me since i'm so adorable'

'put me down! mommy save meeeeeee ~ ' 

'save us mommy, these men are hurting us :(' 

trying to feed them chewing bone since their teeth are growing out slowly and i didn't want our slippers to be torn off. haha

they were trying in getting used to the new home. sooooooo adorable!

the super disgusting narcissism, rolie said. hahahahahah :D

shy little boy - polie

while they still could fit into a cage together! 

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they were getting bigger. if only you notice their color has faded from black to brown. cute, still! ;)

and now....

TADAH!

'i'm already 7months old polie! :) am i handsome now?'

'and i'm princess rolie ;) '

i seldom take photo with polie cause' he just couldn't stop moving while i was around. he's too hyperactive nowadays, like a mad dog -.- so i gave up in camwhoring with him. haha. and if only you realize that there is no picture, not even one picture me with rolie polie when they were still very small. cause' at that particular jiffy, i still couldn't come over my fear towards dogs, even puppies! call me a loser :( blahhhhhhhh 

there are a lot of pictures of them and i just couldn't upload them all. i, really really really feel ecstatic and thankful for the incredible gifts that i have gotten, so far. they will swing their tails when you are home just wanted to play with you after the long day work. and i guess, it helps :) 

thank you, rolie polie - for accompanying me while i was having my tough time! 

i have come to realize that the only people that i need in my life are the one who need me in their life when i have nothing else to offer them but myself. 

goodnight everyone. have a good sleep! :D

Star Cruise - Virgo

guess i have been missing for a long time since end of july huh. i have been trying to keep myself busy from being sentimental again and i personally think that, it didn't help, at all. ha!

but i knew that i'm still being loved - family and of course god. that's why i had been given a chance to travel for free just to give myself some times to breathe for a little while, just a little while :) 

therefore, i started my journey from singapore. i have to say that, you knew you are lucky when you don't even have to pay a penny during your vacation *smirk*  so i met up with the twins for dimsum after i reached singapore. to be frank, i personally think that dimsum at kk is much better than singapore. oppsss :D 

then, continued the journey with trying out the vietnam style breakfast on the next day! 

the taste was pretty special when i took a bite. the taste, that you wouldn't find it in msia to be honest. it's worth to try out at $5.90 only! why not? ;) 

after that, i followed the man to do his things for the whole day. and he's the worst tour guide ever -.- he made me walked for at least 30 minutes just for the dinner. i was so hungry that i could eat a cow :( 

and we finally got there, like after 45 minutes -.-

i had so much fun at that night! felt thankful that i have such lovely friends. 

then on the 3rd day of my journey, i managed to visit the biggest sea aquarium in the world! :D my eyes almost popped out from its socket, like seriously. hehe

ready for the photos? :p 

it didn't take me long to utter 'wow' the moment i stepped into the entrance 

the sea horses! they are soooooooo cute! 

the sea jellies! *doink doink* 

the creepiest sea jellies! 

the upside down sea jellies hahah so cute right :p

spot the octopus? it's pretty disgusting thou 

i guess it was the first time for me to see such an enormous crab :-O it's not a joke

and the eels of course. feeling mehhhh i saw this -.- haha

and the sharks! the creatures that i was excited with :) 

me and the sharks behind hehe :p

then, went for japanese foods in the evening hehehe :D

had a walk along the marina bay after dinner. i guess that it's pretty romantic for the couples staying in sg huh ;) 

and i must thank the friend who brought me around on that day! 

on the 4th day, it's time for the star cruise - virgo! 

we were not arranged for the room with oceanview as it's fully booked so here's it the room with the fake window. haha 

the lobby! 

feeling thirsty? tea corner! 

wet & wild - for the kids! 

pool for adults! hehe

and the jacuzzi of course! :p hehe

star of the galaxy - the place where the guests are welcomed! 

had my breakfasts at here for almost everyday! 

would you die for this just to have breakfast with this view for everyday? ;)

other than that, there are lots of board games available in the cruise to keep you busy :D

gala dinner at bella! 

catch the show after dinner 

i woke up earlier just to see such a breathtaking sunrise. spot the mustache clouds? haha

its beautiful, isn't it 

me with the cruise hehehe

shall end the post with ......

magician - daniel craven! everyone queued up and paid just to take picture with him yet i got the chance to capture photo with him for free eheeheh :p

for any inquiries regarding the cruise, please do not hesitate to contact me via elizebethtan@gmail.com or you could just book it from me ;) 

have a good sleep everyone xoxo