you're good, aren't you?

song from secret garden.

hmmm, please do me a favor, hit the play button before you start to read, thankyou. 

' mommy, why they're so rich that they don't even have to worry about the meals for tomorrow, or worry about the place to stay? why it has to be so unfair to us? why they're able to shop till drops whereas all i could do is window shopping? why....' 

everyone has his/her own destiny, we just couldn't control or even ask for it, could we? to be frank, i come from a very humble family and i don't think that you would want to know about the details. i just wanted to say that, the evil thought inside my mind is growing, and i just don't understand why, or perhaps, i knew about the reason and i just wanted to run away from it. 

the moment i sat down and started to work my brain, there was a little evil inside my mind and kept asking me to get mad with it or screw it. i tried to get over it, i really tried. i tried to talk to someone who i can talk with, yet, sometimes, i chose the wrong person to talk to and it worsen my feeling, so badly. 

maybe you couldn't get what i meant, what i really wanted is a big warm hug as an advice and tell me that it's going to be okay soon after all. and please, do not get me wrong, i'm not  here to ask you all for mercy, not at all. just that, everyone gets sentimental once in a blue moon, ehhh? 

my evil thought popping out abruptly, again. i just couldn't get those words out of my mind.

' you can just sit at the kitchen and accessing to the internet la '

' i don't like the way he did '

' you better watch out, don't let me have the chance to have a car here '

helloooooooooooooo, i'm a human being and i need some love too. don't you order me like a maid, don't you treat me like a plastic bag, don't you say things to me without thinking of the consequences. yea, people are selfish, so am i, sometimes, i have to be REALLY selfish just to protect my heart. shall stop, or else, *couldn't think of the consequences also*   byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

we did funny things when we were little.

tried your mom's heels when she's not home and danced and posed in front of the mirror, i bet you did that! :3

i didn't have a watch when i were small, so i made it by myself! niceeeeeee? :3 

i couldn't sing well when i were little, yet my fan did me a favor and my sound turned out like a singer! :DDD

put your hands up if you did those stuffs when you're small, hmmmmmmmmmmmm, nostalgic indeeddddd. heeee :3

will ya ?

be thankful for what you've gotten, some other people might not have the chance that you've grabbed. so stop being selfish and show your loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee instead of acting like a king. 

i love, i hate.

yes, i love, and i hate. sometimes, i just couldn't control myself and he made me behaved like a tiger just out of the cage and bite everyone, including him. 

life, uncertain.

a girl who drinks alcohol isn't a bad girl please D:   


jesus, please stay with me, i need a pass for my paper F7 & F8, and i'm praying from the bottom of my heart. 

pray for her.

dear baby girl,

      i knew you're a strong girl, i knew you can fight with the illness that you're facing now, i knew you're able to stand up again, i knew you don't deserve this, just, be strong ok, my heart sank the moment i knew you're sick, very sick, you just don't deserve this, you're only 5-6yrs old, you should have a happy childhood instead of taking medicine everyday. girl, just promise to yourself, you'll recover soon, don't lose to the evil, as you're the cutest angel for me in this world. xoxo pray for her.

chao taufu.

it's an exhausted day, again. headed to klang to have bak kut teh as our dinner after finished the classes, mad fatigue D:

we went to pasar malam somewhere around klang after we've finished our meal. it's probably the longest pasar malam at klang. it didn't take us long to smell something terrible after we've walked for a while. ohhhhhhhhhhh, it's chao taufuuuuuuuuuuuu ( in Cantonese )  to be frank, it was the first time i've seen chao taufu in malaysia  and it was the first time i smelled chao taufuuuu as welllll. and and, i felt like i was going to puke at that particular jiffyyy. it's like, ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

my boy made my eyes nearly popped out from its sockets the moment he said he wanted to try. i didn't stop him from trying new things obviously, i sat down and watched him eating instead -.- oh oh, ryan ended up ate one of the chao taufuuuuu also. AHAHHAHAHAHAHHA. not sure if you're reading this or not, just wanted to say thank you for being our guided tour :3

i thought my boy's breathe wasn't going to smell that bad after eaten the chao taufuuuu, then he was like, ' eh, you smell my breathe and see ' and i didn't think that much, even for a sec. abruptly, my heart stopped beating because it smelled like dog's shit, cat's shit whatever shit!  &*)^&$^%@#$(^&  i mean, his breatheeeee D: *sorry to make you couldn't swallow your foods if you're eating now*

so moral the story, chao taufuuuu really chaoooooooooooooo! :-//////////////////

off to bed now. night night :)))))) heeeeeeeeeeee xoxo

overjoy can.

as the picture shows, i'm pretty in an excellent mood recently :3  nahhh, knew you wouldn't want to know, just, take it kay? :3 

although just spent 2days of mine with my grandpa, grandma, uncle and my cousin, and of course, my beloved mom, i totally feel that, i'm the most lucky girl in this world, ever. sometimes, however, it might be hard to accept the way they live, it's more of like, i'm staying at the north with my own ways whereas they're living at the south having their own businesses.

the bond between all of us, is still there, never faded away. i'm, still, proud of my family. oh oh, it's because i have the cutest grandpa and grandma in this world. for instance, my grandpa would have doubted about my grandma if she's out for a couple hours. AHAHAHHAHAHA. i mean, don't you find they're still a lovely husband and wife? oh come on, please don't tell me that there are still lots of husband and wife could maintain their relationship as if it's the first time they met, don't lie to yourself at least. 

i'm having joys with my boy too besides having a whale of time with my family. we went to had a hair cut as well as facial treatment. nahhh, we don't enjoy this kind of *entertainment* that frequent, it's all because we're having a car, for temporary only. heeeeeee. 

i found myself drowning in the wonderland of mine, it's not like, i'm having holidays now, just that i don't have classes in these 2 days, nevertheless, i have already forgotten what i'm supposed to do, right now, yea, right now, like, revise? 

shall stop this by giving you the ELizebeth with the kid look. 

*ignore my big teeth, just for illustration purposes only* AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

what faith can do

feeling glum? feel like it's not the day of yours? why don't just take a break and press the play button :3 

-.-

yea, i'm an insane, i'm mad, cause' i'm a gemini, bye. love it or hate it.