The little girl

the little girl, i met her when i was around 11months old. we stared at each other and used our movements to communicate with each other. everyone seemed to like her, so much including me. she was such a cute little girl in the eyes of everyone, with her coconut hair, with her tiny little teeth, with her tiny weird dimple. 

she would smile at you without any reasons the moment she woke up from her dreamland. at that moment, i thought that she's such a special girl but i later on figured it out that it's her habit. AHAHAHHAHA. oh, and she couldn't even leave her mother for a sec, she kept pulling her mother's garment as if it's going to be the end of the world D:

yet, everyone seemed to be deceived by her innocent and cute appearance. 

there was a day, a day she was only 8-9months old. i heard a kitty kept groaning when i was taking my nap, it didn't take me long to figure out what was going on. my eyes nearly popped out from its socket the moment i found out what had happened at that jiffy. the little girl had throttled the kitty to death D: can you imagine how vigorous the little girl was? nehhh.

as time goes by, we started to grow up and we started to talk to each other. we're so lovely since we bathed together, we slept together, we played together with our barbie dolls and so forth. hmmm, the pictures are still swimming in my mind, how nostalgic. 

after 10-15 years, we're no longer a child in the eyes of everyone. we had our own issues and our so-called little story in our chapters. i kept argued with the little girl, it's like everyday. we had argument everyday to the point that she started to dislike me. well, this feeling same went to me. we could barely talk to each other even though we're staying under the same roof. she no longer trusted me and started to run to her friends, wept in front of her eyes. i attempted to grab her heart by telling her how important was she meant to the family. 

the situation had became better after years. we laughed at what we did during the childhood like, i scolded her because she ate my foods, i know, that's why i'm so fat now :) AHAHHAHHA, i bullied her by telling our mother that she bullied me and etc. 

hmmm, now, today, we all had grown up, yet the little girl still a little girl in my heart. cause' she will never be a tough girl in the eyes of her family. 

dear little girl, 

                   sometimes, gave you advice in a harsh way did not mean that i was mean. i was trying to make your remember what i told you so that i would not have to repeat it again and again and again. anyway, 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) 

29/4/2012

any advert.

i dare to dream.

went to watch battleship with my bf just now. i didn't know that the starring was taylor kitsch at the first place. the moment i sat down, it didn't take me long to open my mouth SO WIDE just because that i'm so in love with him after watched the John Carter. i even use his pictures as my desktop background. yea, i know, insane.

i used to tell my mother that i wanted to have a caucasian as my partner so badly the moment i'm aware of the love. i stopped dreaming about this after i met my bf. but now, caucasian makes my heart beats, again. ain't saying that my bf does not make my heart beats. just that, i really really really admire caucasian since i was 14?15? hmm, couldn't remember anymore. 

we went to have McD as our dinner after the movie. there, i saw something that really made my heart sank. i saw a guy, 50++yrs old, he was with an old woman sitting on the wheelchair, a woman who i would consider as disabled person? and 2 housemaids were with them as well. at that moment, i was thinking, how lucky i am to live in this world, without having the problem to handle such situation? i think, that guy must be tough, very tough cause i could tell through his eyes.

why bother to be so afraid of dreaming? i always dream. i dream that someday, i'm going to reach the peak and tell my family that i have finally made it. i dream that someday, any issue no longer an issue for me as long as i've gotten enough money. i dream that someday......

so, i think, i will still continue to dream that, someday, i will meet taylor kitsch ;))))))

recommended books.

i'm the lady who pretty keen on reading/watching romance cause' i knew that it could hardly happen in my life. so i have the habit to imagine something strange/weird or whatsoever when i'm actually tired of looking/studying the books. i love to imagine that i'm actually the girl in that particular book that the author wrote. yea, i knew it sounds, hmmm, more of like, narcissism? :p 

so, with the RM200 book vouchers that i gotten from my uni, here's the books that i bought ;) 

a love story that you won't want to miss it ;)

ah, i haven't gotten the time to read this so far

same goes to this one

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i think, i would love to start this now :)

currently reading this book, i learnt some knowledge in purchasing property here ;)

i don't bluff when i say that i love to read :-O

keep reading k.

 

my little sister always tell me that i'm pretty just because of my lens. okay la, i admit it :))))))))))))

ma' man.

dear seelik,

                 you're not the best man that i'm looking for all these whiles, you're not as charming as others, you're not as hot as other guys, you're not... you're not... yet, i chose you to be my man cause' i really do feel secure whenever you're beside me.

                 we have been walked through so many obstacles in these 2 years, but you know that it's not going to be an issue to us. what makes me worry is the future, our different aims.

                 anyway, happy 2nd anniversary, love.

4th April 2012

 okay la, i slapped him cause' he refused to take picture with me. that's why his eyes were so red. 

okay la, then i pretended to sayang him after that.