love.

i'm, seriously, not ready for this, and you just took her away.

she was the one who raised us up when my mother was not around. she was the one who taken care after us when we're kinda like abandoned by others. she was the one who truly sacrificed everything just for her family.

dear grandma,

hello, grandma. i seriously hope that you're doing well up there. i have to admit that i'm not a good grandchild for you. we only met up like once a year, especially during chinese new year. i'm thinking, what's the point of us to go back home since you're not around anymore? :(

grandma, do you still remember you used to make us those traditional pastries? i have to tell you that, they are the best in the world, like you're born to be a pastry chef. ah, i still remember that, all of us used to make dumplings made of glutinous rice flour served in soup together, and played with it.

grandma, do you still remember that you kept asking us to eat even though we had just eaten? like worried about that we'll starve to death. and, i do remember that we used to get the chance to have a table of delicious foods whenever there was a special date. and those foods made us ate like tigers just out of cages.

grandma, do you still remember that you used to get up earlier just to buy us breakfast? i used to be happy the moment i heard the sound coming from your motorbike, always.

grandma, do you still remember that i love to call you 'grandma' at the gate before i stepped into the house when i visited you? and you would have stood up and waved at me and gave me your radiant smile, the prettiest smile, ever.

grandma, there are lots of words for me to say, just that the space here isn't enough for me to fill up my loves for you. grandma, you used to tell us jokes and stories, you used to work so hard just to make sure that everyone is, at least, not suffering from hunger.

grandma, you're the best grandma in this world, forever. i never gotten the chance to say this in front of you,
dear grandma, i love you, forever.

rest in peace.