dear alan.

i didnt know how, i didnt know when, and i didnt know when either. everything just started in a click, a real quick ones.

dear alan,

                 holding your hands tight and telling the world that you are the man actually took me lots of courage, lots of consideration, i really meant, a lot. i knew it aint easy for me, aint easy for you too. and theres some point that i almost let you slip, slip through that hole again.

                 you've seen the dark sides of me, but you chose to stay with me. you've seen all of the flaws of me, yet you chose to embrace them, all of them. and thats the one and only reason i chose you, too. i've been in a deep shit for months and i secretly knew that you were in a same situation too *smirk* but somehow, i found the light in you.

                  i, actually love lying next to you and telling you the stories over and over again and it same goes to your stories. i wouldnt say your stories are the best or the worst, but it actually takes me into your heart slowly, and explore it bit by bit. never felt such a deep feelings since then. wouldnt say my heart died, just stop beating. and now, you're making it beats, again.

                  aint going to brag about how lucky i am to bump into such a lovely man, but i couldnt help it. haha :) who would wake up earlier just to make sure im well awake and get ready for work? who would walk me to the car and open the door for me just to make sure everything is safe and sound? who would take me hunt for good foods for every weekends? who would be there for me in a sec when i step into hiccups in works? who would treat my family members like his own? but most importantly, who would do all of these things, for everyday? im talking about, everyday ♥

                    i knew its pretty funny for how we started. but i really like the way we stare at each other and giggle without a reason. thats happiness which i've been looking for since then. thank you for having faith in me even after i revealed all of the flaws right in front of you. and dont you worry that your little heart would break again, cause' the girl whos writing this post is going to sew it back, back to what it meant to be ♥

                      the way our stories unfold is yet to be told. but im pretty sure that we both can make it, slowly cause' you are the only exception, afterall.

love,
elle