neutral.

it's difficult to tell my mood for today, it can be said to be neutral and yet it's more of like towards negative. in fact, there are thousands of hundreds of things which we, totally, could not control in our hands, including the thought of others. 

to be frank, in fact, i have used to link one thing to another thing, it's like a snowball, keep on rolling, rolling into an enormous snowball, until i could barely handle it. 

your one single word could afford to break my heart into pieces, your one single move could afford to make me have a doubt in you. nobody says it's easy to get involved into such a sweet-sour situation. sometimes, i show you the poker face of mine do not mean that i'm totally fine. i am just trying to adapt and trying so hard to get used to it. 

would you stop for a minute, no, for a second, just to think of my feeling if you're the one who are actually facing or handling the situation same as mine.